CAMP!!

Sunday, March 26, 2017

Update

I totally forgot, and just realized that this thing existed.
I apologize. It's been way too long since I've even looked at this.
Which is to say, I'm already in college. Holy Cow. I know. 
The last post was me just going to Suzhou man! What happened.
Well, it's been 6 years that I stayed there.
I've grown. Matured.
Went through somethings that I would really rather not have gone through.
Changed into a new person that I haven't had the courage and heart to love.
But at the same time I've gained so many things there. The courage to make new friends, try new things, to love and hate, to feel the frustration of not being able to do anything, the accomplishment after doing so much.
The past 6 years has been a blast.

But now, I'm in college. and I still feel like I'm the person that I have not come to love. Dissatisfaction still bites into me as I live on through these days.
However, I guess the only thing I can do is continue to push on, to try and go through these murky waters, in search of what is it I should do.

And for now, that thing, is to stop procrastinating and actually accept that Spring Quarter is starting tomorrow. :'(

EnD

Sunday, February 10, 2013

Add-Ins : HAPPY CNY~~

To all people that is reading this, I wish you a Happy New Year. With all the love, all the joy, all the good fortune, all the 靓仔靓女, Happy New Year la~ TEEHEE~ >.< XP
Yo people!!
It's CNY~!! HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
So damn hot right now.
Right. I'm currently in Malaysia, Kuala Pilah in exact. Some recall from the past few days.
Okay. I've been in Malaysia for a week now, actually. And my last few days were so busy, I haven't been in my house for more than half an hour, despite sleeping in my house. Tired much.
Penang was, well, the same really. But coming back this time, it has a different feeling.
Penang was always my home, really. But, after admitting that I'm more comfortable in Suzhou, Penang suddenly seemed so --- unfamiliar. 
I'm being paranoid, I know. 
Now, being in Kuala Pilah, that kind of unfamiliar feeling hits straight on my face.
The shop was renovated, and everything is so different now. 
And I realized, it's not that it's strange, it's just that I'm CAUGHT UP IN THE PAST. 
(Wide-eyed)
It's true! I've always remember Penang as my Primary school life. Now that all my friends are in Suzhou, Penang is no longer a place where I can act like everyone else and just "hang out" with my friends.
It's so sad.
(Oh come on, it's CNY)
Ya ya, that's true.  So, I'll stop talking about depressing things.
Let's see, I shall write down the basic outline what we did today. 
WAKE UP --> EAT --> VISIT PEOPLE --> EAT --> WATCH TV --> EAT --> REST --> EAT --> SLEEP
Whoa~ There are like, four EATs in there. 
=.=
But, what the hell. It's NEW YEAR'S~!~!

~END~


Sunday, January 6, 2013

3rd Post. Dreams and Reality

I really need to thank BAKUMAN! for this title. I did say about posting every 2 or 3 days, but China has internet blocking stuff, so it makes it hard for me to upload so frequently. Now, onto the post: 

Lately, my brother's been talking about college and the future and everything... And this made me think really hard about my future and what I want to do in the future.
Many people have dreams when they were young, and of course I have a dream.
I wanted to be a singer. But, I thought that being in the entertainment world was nice enough.
I also thought of being a writer, or a script-writer, so that I can vent-out the imagination and stories that are in my head and let the world know what's in my head.
But, I gotta say, REALITY is a big word. It always stops people in their tracks, always stop us from this fantasy. I always wondered how people without a dream get on with life. It pains me every time when I think about my future. I've been trying very hard to stop thinking about my future. I've been doing a good job for the past few years, until now.
I really do envy Mashiro in BAKUMAN!. He was able to achieve what he wanted to do in life in the end even if he did give up before. But, like my mom said, "It's all a lie." It hurts.
Why can't I be what I want to be? Why must REALITY be so CRUEL?! Why must MONEY be so closely related to my future?! Sob.
I'm not naive. I know. In today's society, nobody can live apart from the word "MONEY".
Just for once, I'll like to fantasize about my future, about how I would write my stories to share to the world, or sing as a living, it would be nice. Hehe.

Also, I put this in the Impacts of My Life label because I thought that this would be a big impact on my life. 


Thursday, October 4, 2012

Post 2.. About 'Jovyne - Ray'

That day when I was bathing.. I wondered.. How did the name "Jovyne-Ray" came about... And I seriously thought for a while.. And I remembered now.. Let me tell you a story...

A certain white house on Lengkok Sg Dua, Gelugor, Penang, Malaysia. 9.00 pm. 2009. 
A phone call came. 
"Hello, is Xin Ray there?"
"Yes, wait a second.." My grandma picked up the phone.
She left it by the table, went by the stairs, and shouted "A RUUUUUUUUIIIII!!!! Phone!!" 
I heard her, and picked up the phone,
"Hello?" I said to the phone.
"Hello, Xin Ray? This is Alyssa. I have a ....." I carried my conversation on with Alyssa, my best friend that have stuck with me since 3rd grade.
.....The next day.....
"Oh, hi Alyssa" I greeted her in school.
"Oh, A Rui." She had a grin on her face.
I was shocked by what she said, and she told my friends about the phone call from the previous night. 
So, it turned out that's how they called my for the years after.

Since my nickname that I use in my internet accounts is Jovyne, and I thought that putting the names together would be cool, so it turned into "Jovyne - Ray".. 
Weird, eh... But these brings back memories...
When I think about something next time, I'll write again :) 


Tuesday, October 2, 2012

Intro and first day.

You know how sometimes you would just stare at the ceiling and flashback to things that made you who you are now? Well, I just thought of one of them, and I thought, why not write those down?? That would be cool.
So, I came out with an idea on writing one of those every two or three days. If I remember.

Today's flashback:
Penang, Malaysia. SRJK(C) Keong Hoe. Block A. 3rd Floor. Class 6M.
2010. Somewhere around March.
Colored pens suddenly got popular between my best friends. This was started by one of my best friends in class, Yan Shan (Meiiz). We often use these colored pens to write random stuff like who we like, hate, or just how we feel or song lyrics on the back of our homework diaries. We also often use these colored pens to draw and work on our own font. We would often exchange each other's homework diaries and look at the stuff we write in them. I realized how Meiiz had one of the most beautiful fonts, and so I thought of learning how to do it. Sometimes, I would ask her how she did some of the fonts, and she also realized how I was trying to copy her type of font, and she said something I would never forget:
“不要再学我了。自己做自己的啦。” (basically saying "Don't try to imitate me, make your own one.")

At that time, I know that she was referring to the font, and I thought to myself that I just wanted to have pretty font too. Though, now that I think about it, she must've meant 'don't copy others, make something that says YOU on it'. I'm actually really grateful for it. ^.^
(Though my font writing really got on affected because of all those times that I tried to imitate it. Heehee >.<)

Friday, September 28, 2012

Fall Holiday..

Aaah.....A month has passed by...
Well, the pass month was quick..
Met quite some new friends, having some great times with the old ones... 
School Projects --> Somehow I managed to finish them.. >.<

CAMP!
The activities this year wasn't that fun at all.... 
Though, the talent show was awesome!!!

I somehow got addicted to learning GANGNAM STYLE though..
Still.. Everything's fine.

Fall HOLIDAY~
What to do?!?!?! 
My mom going to Italy this coming Monday.
My dad would be busy for the whole week.
Hmm.. What to do?!?!?!
Well, of course I'll stick with reading manga, watching anime and reading novels.. 
But, other than that.. Nothing to do.. 
(=.=lll)

Sheesh, need some help here ?!

Check this link.. It's the dancing course for the whole song of GANGNAM STYLE!

Friday, August 17, 2012

Summer Holidays... over :'(

After two long (?) months... Summer holidays is finally over.
Nooooooooooo!!!! I don't wanna go back to school.
Though, I still can't believe that I'm already in high school and is currently in Grade 9.
Yikes.
9A. Different class AND pod from Raissa. Cynthia's in my class. New student: Joyce Zhang. New Teacher: Mr. F???? (I forgot his name. XP)
So, I wonder, how is my school life going to be like from next Monday onwards?? :?
At least, let's just hope it isn't as worse as last year's 1st sem. :)

So, what should I do for the last weekend I have before school starts???
Manga?
Nah, I can read that even during classes.
Anime?
No. I don't feel like getting addicted again.
Snooker?
Sure. But I can't play that all day long. I'll keep it in my checklist.
Badminton?
Need to ask Raissa about the court.
Pool?
Totally!! But I need to confirm whether IT is over yet or not.
Cycling?
NO WAY!!! Too hot outside. Would turn into a barbecue human in no time.

Sigh... what to do, what to do???

Xin Ray Tee
10:45 a.m.
A girl that is lost on what to do. :)